After looking back
at the journey I have made through the credential program I have
learned a lot about myself, the teacher I am and wish to be, and also
my students. I discovered that my students have a variety of needs
that they require of me as their teacher. They need their teacher to
be fair and clear when it comes to directions and assignments. They
need their teacher to have consistent habits such as always writing
the homework on the board or being reminded at the beginning of the
period. The need that surprised me the most which surfaced over time
was the need for the students to feel a sense of school involvement
and community. This need didn't become visible to me until the end of
my first semester of student teaching. This was understandable
because I was very cautious not to tell my students a lot about
myself because I was more interested in their personalities and
perspectives. For this reason, students were hesitant at first. As I
became more comfortable with my class more of my personality began to
show. This rapport strengthened the communication between my students
and they were eventually able to expose their true need.
My students needed
to feel like a part of a school community where their hard work and
creativity was valued by their teachers and their peers. This was
very surprising to me because I had the benefit of attending a high
school that had a strong sense of community between all of the
students and the teachers. This sense of camaraderie has sadly faded
away from my old high school. But I look back and wonder, where did
it go? And, how did it get there in the first place? It was the
teachers. The teachers had implemented this sense of community and
value in their students' hard work and creative expression. It took
me awhile to fully understand this need my students required but
after walking around campus during lunch time one afternoon, it
became abundantly clear. Where were all the other teachers? They were
sitting in their rooms, many alone with no students. While some
classrooms were blasting with music and overflowing with students.
And, I must, of course, compliment the teacher's whose rooms are
filled at lunch with amazing influential clubs like the GSA, Interact
Club, and Habitat for Humanity. Of course, there are many more. The
classrooms I just described clearly made the students feel
comfortable and confident. After witnessing the different dynamic
between these types of classrooms, I realized that the gap between my
students and I was only as wide as I made it.
Students are very
responsive and want to create a sense of community. They want to feel
appreciated. They want to feel safe and comfortable in the classroom
and around campus. The only way to create this is to open myself up
to my students. Teachers really can lead by example. If I create a
safe, friendly, accepting environment in my classroom and make myself
visible and available to students, it's almost like opening a
floodgate. I can become an adviser of a club, offer homework help,
participate in community events, help cast the spring musical, the
options are vast and numerous. The gap is only as wide as I make it.
After reading “One Teacher's Story,” there was one thing that
really triggered a negative response in me which was the excuse for
the history textbooks being watered down,“It is easier not to
know.” I would also like to add a commonly heard phrase, “It's
not my responsibility, someone else will do it.” I have heard this
time and time again. Really? I thought school was where Ignorance and
Misunderstanding were exposed for the perpetrators they really are?
What happened? When did this become the mentality? Had it always been
the mentality and I was just too naive to notice? No, that was my own
biased ignorant opinion, because there were always those teachers
that took those statements and snapped them in their hands, bursting
like fountains of generosity, responsibility, and enthusiasm for
their profession. A passion that the students could feel. It's an
impossible intensity to miss. Like watching actors on a stage, an
equilibrium sharing their energy with the audience and vice versa.
Students don't feel connected to their teacher or their school,
students don't share that dynamic energy. As educator Wendy Zagray
Warren best said,“I learned a long time ago about the correlation
between students' academic success and whether or not they were able
to see themselves in schools.” A student can't see themselves in a
place they can connect to and students connect best to other human
beings. I hope I am able to create an environment in which students
feel comfortable, confident to speak their mind, and comfortable
making mistakes. I hope that I can be an amazing educator because I
have had the privilege of working with so many brilliant educators in
my lifetime. I hope I can make a difference and allow my own ignorant
triggers to subside allowing me to become the educator I aspire to
be. And for the teachers that are already on the front lines,
fighting the hard fight, I look forward to joining your ranks soon.